I'm writing! Still about not writing, but still I'm writing! April 22, 2016 13:15
Three days ago I decided to tell on myself and the mishmash that goes on in my head about my writing, and the result has been transformational.
I’m not surprised though, this has happened many times before. I get completely freaked out about something for days/months/years/decades, I tell on myself, people respond supportively, and I wonder what all the fuss was about.
I hope one day to be able to get past my issues without having to tell on myself. Truth be told, I find this process very embarrassing because …
1. I’m certain people think that I do this for approval, and although I do need to speak my truth to move through my fears, there’s a part of me that really likes the approval.
2. I believe that asking for approval is a sign of weakness, and as much as I don't want to be weak, I really don't want to be perceived as weak.
3. I’m mortified that I care what people think about me.
But I’m going to write anyway, and any day now I’ll be writing about something far more interesting than my issues around writing, until then, thank you for your understanding.